There is someone who I can not name

She hurts me so but her, I will not restrain

All that she brings me comes with pain

This oppressor in me

 

She keeps me in her place for me

I’m afraid to venture out on my own

My steps are ordered; it’s easier

No other way have I known

 

She told me my name

Learned me this game

Provided me with direction

To her, I will bring no shame

My world is not to be reframed

I need her affection

 

Her work is mine to do

Her purpose for my life, I fulfill

She keeps my time, manages my dime

And tells me what is real

 

I bear her lash

Hard, she strikes me

Still, I do her work

Because I believe she likes me

 

I think we’re close because she’s on the inside  

She knows me best so in her, I confide

She keeps my secrets and tells me lies

This oppressor in me 

 

I won’t run away from her

It’d be like running from myself

Still, sometimes I wonder what freedom feels like

But, she really needs my help

 

I know no other way to be

She has taught me all that I know

Without her eyes, I cannot see 

I shouldn’t hold on but I can’t let go

Of this oppressor in me